My youngest had to make a hard, grown up decision today and I can’t give her hug and tell her everything is going to be okay because she is 1,500 miles away. Yes, she is a twenty something year old adult. Yes, this will be just one of many hard, grown up decisions she will have to make in her life. And, yes whether she is twenty, thirty or forty she is and will always be my baby.
I have spent all day worried about her, hurting for her. She called me for advice early this morning and I laid out what I thought the possible scenarios were. Some were good and some were bad. My wife jumped my ass for even bringing up the negatives, but I had to. Why shield her from the worst? The glass isn’t always half empty or half full sometimes the glass just is. I would rather walk her through both so that she has the opportunity to process the information and the options. This wasn’t a decision I was going to be able to make for her. I wish I could. I would gladly absorb all the hurt and pain. But I am here and she is there, 1,500 miles away.
I have had some rough spots in my life. I am not particularly happy with where I am at vocationally right now. Money is tight and rather than slowing down, smelling the roses and being as financially comfortable as I thought I might be at my age, I am faced with a fair amount of uncertainty. With all that said the one thing I am certain about is my undying love for my family and that I will always try to be the best father that I can be. No amount money, job or prestige can ever replace my love for them or what I am willing to do for them.
My youngest had to make a hard, grown up decision today. I talked her through it. I reassured her that she made the right decision. Maybe it didn’t feel like it at the moment but it would later. And though I couldn’t see it I could feel it, she grew some more, another step towards the day when she won’t need to call her Dad for reassurance. But whether I am here physically or just spiritually she will always know that I am willing to walk beside of her because that is the greatest gift I can offer my greatest gifts. I am Dad and there isn’t any other job I would rather have.