A Dogs Life-#4 update- A Eulogy

Way back in June of 2016 I wrote a post I titled A Dogs Life-#4 about the two current dogs in my life. In this post I wrote about my 100 + pound regal Rhodesian Ridgeback and my special girl, that I described as “homely” because she was. Was……..

This morning, I had my special, homely girl euthanized or “put to sleep” as we prefer to call it in the South.

For the last couple of days she had been acting very pokey. At first I just chalked it up to her going into heat. In the past she would get a little snippy during her cycle and as she has gotten older a little meaner. But it typically didn’t last long so after three days I became concerned.

By the fourth day she had become very lethargic so we took her to the vet. After a battery of test, x-rays and $700 I knew no more about what was wrong with her than I did before I walked in the door of the veterinary clinic. The Doctor gave her some fluids, and a sedative to help her sleep and home we went hoping that after some rest she would be back to her old self terrorizing chipmunks in the backyard.

Unfortunately when I checked on her this morning she had gone down hill dramatically. She was suffering although I wasn’t sure it was from pain, maybe it was, but I think it was more out of frustration. Frustration that she wasn’t bugging the shit out of her big brother or chasing squirrels around the yard. Frustration that she just didn’t feel like her old bad ass self.

After I had to put Dog #3 down I promised myself that I wouldn’t get so emotionally attached to “just a dog” ever again. Well this morning I broke that promise. As I drove her to the vet, crying like a baby listening to her moan in the backseat, I knew in my heart that she wasn’t coming back with me.

Yes she was a homely little girl and a pain in the ass most days digging holes and driving everyone nuts. But she was also the smartest dog I have ever owned and today, after 11 years of being the Queen of our backyard she is gone.

I held her paw, as she quietly slipped away this morning. I told her to have a safe trip and I thanked her. For the unconditional love she gave us. The kind of love only a stray can offer, thankful for a home and a family. The kind of love that none of us deserves and take for granted until its gone and today I experienced another hard gone. I am sure there will be more but I was surprised how much this one hurt. She was after all “just a dog'”

Rest in peace my special friend. The squirrels won’t miss you but your family does and will.

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I am a frustrated writer and poet waiting to be discovered. A stand-up philosopher performing on a street corner near you. A Christian with questions but I don’t want to hear your answers. A Buddhist with a bumper sticker on my truck to prove it. A collector of quotes. A grower of lettuce. The Patron Saint of earthworms who name their children after me. A cyclist whose big ass strains the seams of his Lycra bibs. I am American by birth, Southern by the grace of God. My goal in life is to leave an imprint on the lives of the people I love not a footprint on the earth. I am a son, a husband, a father composed of 65%-Oxygen, 18%-Carbon, 10%-Hydrogen, 3%-Nitrogen, 3%-Diet Coke and 1%-Oreo.
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20 Responses to A Dogs Life-#4 update- A Eulogy

  1. So very sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is so hard; they grab your heart and never let go.

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  2. maryplumbago says:

    I’m so sorry. I’ve had to do that to my dogs in the past. It’s a hurt than runs deep and long. I loved them all like they were my children ( I have none). At my age, I won’t get more and now I have many wonderful memories and tons of pictures and such a feeling of unconditional love that only a pet can give. I’m ever grateful.

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  3. I am so sorry for your loss. My cat will turn 13 in April and I think more often of the fact that he is old and will probably have only a few years. They do steal our hearts, don’t they?

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  4. Sylvia says:

    I am so sorry for your loss.

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  5. Nan says:

    By the time I reached the end of your post, I had tears in my eyes. Seriously. I have a little one (also a rescue) that I’m extremely attached to. And even though I know that one day I’ll face her demise (she turns 10 next month), I have no doubt I’ll be totally be useless for many days thereafter. (It seems some are better at stealing hearts than others.)

    Know that many of us are sending warm thoughts … and understanding.

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  6. acflory says:

    -hugs from the bottom of my heart-

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  7. Deepest condolences. Losing my pup changed me forever, she took a piece of my heart with her. Many hugs sent to you

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