Way back in June of 2016 I wrote a post I titled A Dogs Life-#4 about the two current dogs in my life. In this post I wrote about my 100 + pound regal Rhodesian Ridgeback and my special girl, that I described as “homely” because she was. Was……..
This morning, I had my special, homely girl euthanized or “put to sleep” as we prefer to call it in the South.
For the last couple of days she had been acting very pokey. At first I just chalked it up to her going into heat. In the past she would get a little snippy during her cycle and as she has gotten older a little meaner. But it typically didn’t last long so after three days I became concerned.
By the fourth day she had become very lethargic so we took her to the vet. After a battery of test, x-rays and $700 I knew no more about what was wrong with her than I did before I walked in the door of the veterinary clinic. The Doctor gave her some fluids, and a sedative to help her sleep and home we went hoping that after some rest she would be back to her old self terrorizing chipmunks in the backyard.
Unfortunately when I checked on her this morning she had gone down hill dramatically. She was suffering although I wasn’t sure it was from pain, maybe it was, but I think it was more out of frustration. Frustration that she wasn’t bugging the shit out of her big brother or chasing squirrels around the yard. Frustration that she just didn’t feel like her old bad ass self.
After I had to put Dog #3 down I promised myself that I wouldn’t get so emotionally attached to “just a dog” ever again. Well this morning I broke that promise. As I drove her to the vet, crying like a baby listening to her moan in the backseat, I knew in my heart that she wasn’t coming back with me.
Yes she was a homely little girl and a pain in the ass most days digging holes and driving everyone nuts. But she was also the smartest dog I have ever owned and today, after 11 years of being the Queen of our backyard she is gone.
I held her paw, as she quietly slipped away this morning. I told her to have a safe trip and I thanked her. For the unconditional love she gave us. The kind of love only a stray can offer, thankful for a home and a family. The kind of love that none of us deserves and take for granted until its gone and today I experienced another hard gone. I am sure there will be more but I was surprised how much this one hurt. She was after all “just a dog'”
Rest in peace my special friend. The squirrels won’t miss you but your family does and will.
My condolences.
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So very sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is so hard; they grab your heart and never let go.
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Having a tough time with this one. She was so grateful to us for taking her in I am not sure I showed her the same gratefulness for the love she gave.
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Don’t be too hard on yourself, brother. None of us can ever match the love our pets give us, hard as we may try.
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I’m so sorry. I’ve had to do that to my dogs in the past. It’s a hurt than runs deep and long. I loved them all like they were my children ( I have none). At my age, I won’t get more and now I have many wonderful memories and tons of pictures and such a feeling of unconditional love that only a pet can give. I’m ever grateful.
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Thank you Mary
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I am so sorry for your loss. My cat will turn 13 in April and I think more often of the fact that he is old and will probably have only a few years. They do steal our hearts, don’t they?
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Yes they do. Thank you, hope you are well
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Yes, all is well, thanks.
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I am so sorry for your loss.
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By the time I reached the end of your post, I had tears in my eyes. Seriously. I have a little one (also a rescue) that I’m extremely attached to. And even though I know that one day I’ll face her demise (she turns 10 next month), I have no doubt I’ll be totally be useless for many days thereafter. (It seems some are better at stealing hearts than others.)
Know that many of us are sending warm thoughts … and understanding.
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Thank you Ms. Nan. She was a good girl and the house seems very quiet and lonely without her. What I will miss most about her is begging for belly rubs. Such a little thing that now I wish I gave her more of.
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-hugs from the bottom of my heart-
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Thank you. Been a rough week and a very lonely week for her big brother.
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Yeah. Hugs are good.
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Deepest condolences. Losing my pup changed me forever, she took a piece of my heart with her. Many hugs sent to you
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Thank you.
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I’m so sorry for your loss. I feel your pain. My husband and I have had to put two dogs down and not only was it painful but I was not even strong enough to go with him to the vet. So I feel bad for being unable to say goodbye to my loyal and loving pets. I also feel bad that I passed the task on to my husband. At least you were there, hand on the paw and all, until the bitter end for your loving pet.
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Funny I was thinking about her today. I spent all day in the yard mowing and building a bench next to my fountain. She would have been under my feet the entire time. Thanks for reading and sharing your thoughts.
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